too awkward for college.

so there's this kid in my french class, right ?
and he has friends.
and he usually sits with those friends, and talks with those friends, and partners up with those friends during class.

usually :
french teacher : "okay class, everyone turn around and work with a partner."
*everyone partners up and kailey is left awkward and alone in the back of the classroom.*
*teacher comes over to make awkward small talk with kailey and make sure she is doing okay, and understanding the assignment.*

bonjour, yes, i'm fine it's just that there is an odd number of kids in this class and kailey doesn't know any of these classmates. but like, that's fine. kailey likes to work alone.

however, recently the aforementioned kid with friends has taken to sitting in front of kailey, instead of with his friends. (which is kind of unfortunate because he is quite tall, and i am...significantly less tall.)

anyway.

he still talks to his friends from across the classroom. 
but now, every time the teacher says
"okay class, everyone turn around and work with a partner."
the kid turns around immediately like "okay kailey let's get this over with" (...okay, he doesn't actually say that but the unspoken words are practically tangible.)

every.
time.

and the teacher glances over at kailey and the boy every once in a while, with what i could swear is a hint of pride in his eyes.

okay look :

1. the kid has other friends. he doesn't need to partner with kailey.
2. the only time he talks to kailey is when the teacher tells everyone to find a partner.
3. as a sort of unspoken rule, byu boys don't talk to kailey. like ever. [iamnotexaggerating.]

...basically : i'm like 80 percent sure that my french teacher has bribed this boy into being my partner, because he feels like i'm just that pathetic awkward.

lol.
i'm too awkward for college. 

at this point, i've just accepted the fact that my life is an awkward comedy show that exists purely to entertain the rest of the world.

that's okay though.
because 120 days from now, i'll be in paris, so like....
nothing else really matters anymore.

....also i'd just really like to take this moment to ask : why the freaking heck does everyone in provo think "game nights" are a good idea ? like do you honestly get enjoyment out of playing stupid board games with a big group of people you don't even know ?

look i'm sorry but i don't see the enjoyment in that, okay ?

i need to get out of provo.

anyway.
life is fine.
at least i have a job again.

please enjoy this short clip that is basically a depiction of my life in provo :

<3