sometimes, when you're a kailey you just sit on your couch. and literally all you can think is completely random pensées like:
1. i do not like beards. i will probably never trust a man with a beard.
2. holy. cow. i'm so. bored.
3. airplane tickets should be cheap. i would like that.
4. i'm so white. i should get friends and like, go outside. or something.
- um. friends. how do i get some of those ?
...and then.
you remember:
i actually have something i need to get off my chest.
so here it is:
there is a difference between being offended and just being bothered/fed up/harassed/bugged.
it is possible to not care what people thing about you, but still be annoyed that they are rude enough say it.
there are some people in this world that you just don't need.
they aren't necessarily bad people. and maybe they honestly aren't trying to bring you down.
...but they certainly aren't making your life any better.
and:you. do not. need. to deal. with people. who make you feel like less than you are worth. people who make you feel, maybe,
- harassed.
- bothered.
- upset.
- fed up.
- anxious.
- pressured to be someone or do something that you don't want to be or do.
dear world,
if you feel harassed by someone, if someone is seriously bringing you down, you need to take that relationship, and you need to end it. you need to toss it out the window. you need to throw it to the wind, and close your eyes as it blows away.
but maybe you're worried about hurting that person's feelings. maybe you'd rather not cause a scene. maybe you're trying to give them a second/third/fourth/fifth/ chance.
no.
stop it.
you can give people chances to change. that is fine. but !
you do not need to give people more chances to hurt you.
just because you forgive someone,
doesn't mean you need to allow them
the privilege of sticking around
wonderful, beautiful, lovely you.
sometimes it's scary. and, duh, it probably will not be received well.
but you deserve better.
so:
forgive them.
and then, let them go.
and let go of their memories.
let go of all of the stupid/mean/jerky/disrespectful/hurtful things they took, or said, or did. or didn't say. or didn't do.
and then walk away.
it's okay to do that, you know.
it's okay to remove people from your life. it's okay to ask people to leave. it's okay to make your world a little happier/lighter/easier.
so if you're looking for validation.
here it is! and, okay, fine. my permission probably isn't worth much. but if there is someone toxic in your life, no matter how hard or how scary or how intimidating it may be... you should, you can, you need to tell them to get out.
because you deserve so much better.
you deserve oceans that wave for you, and stars that shine for you, songs that are sung just to make you happy and presents just because, even when it's not your birthday. you deserve to be told jokes because your laugh makes the world a better place. you deserve people who know just how special you are, because you are special.
you can not save everyone.
but you can save yourself.
so 1, 2, 3, go !
i'm rooting for you.
okay. rant over.
have a nice night, cutie pies.
<3